The next daze

2 years and some change now.  Wow, where has the time gone?

Lots of things have changed, but I'm still here.  These are the hardest times.  I'm sure you'll understand that.  You always loved this time of year.  I'm sorry you missed it.  The kids are doing ok. I think.  They don't want much to do with me any more.

Me, I'm just piddling on.  I think I'm still trying to wake up, like this is some awful dream.  I know it's not, I'm not stupid, but some days it just feels like I'm going through the motions without any goal set in my mind.  We used to talk about my high school days, it's pretty much exactly like that.  Your friends pretty much took off, like we always thought they would.

Not much to say, but I wanted to tell you I miss you, and I hope you're not in pain any more.  I've still got a ways to go, but there isn't a day that goes by I don't think about you.